I didn't believe it when they told me!

Growing up, I had a love/hate relationship with my sister. I always loved her, but we fought. My grandma used to tell me how we would be best friends one day. I would laugh, How could we? We don't get along! But in the past 8 years, I realized that, that wise older woman was right. Sure, we still disagree. Only sometimes though. And my sister is still the boss. But my grandma says that her sister is still the boss, so it is something I have come to except, and appreciate. So I have to ask myself, did I have this other best friend my whole life? Who was always here, and I just didn't realize?! Personally I would have to say that having an older sister has been a blessing. Even when we were younger. Unfortunately for her, she has had the responsibility of being the "first one" so she has caught a lot of flack. But I must say for myself, my family, my brothers, and parents. Thank you for all you do, and we love you more than you may know!

The Curse of being a night owl

I am not one of those people who can decide, okay, I am going to bed now. Turn off the t.v. or radio, and drift off into a silent slumber within a minute or so. I am the person who is still awake an hour later and asking my husband (who is asleep) to turn the radio back on, because the 59 minutes it gave me to fall asleep just didn't quite cut it! Some nights I just watch t.v., type on the computer, read a book or listen to some good old music to shut my mind off so I can fall asleep. And even then, I still lie awake just trying to make my mind go blank so that I can get some shut eye. On the days that I really feel desperate to get some rest and I can tell I am finally falling asleep, I get pretty excited. I go into that deep relaxation and (wah...)...wait, what's that. I think I hear a faint noise. Could Stetson be awake? I listen real close and don't hear anything, So I think that it is just my mom ears. Okay now finally I can sleep (WAAAAHHHH!!!!) or, maybe not.

To cut or not to cut!?

To all who know I graduated from cosmetology school, about 4 years ago. My last goal while I was there, was to grow my hair out for a year, without cutting it off. Well it has been about 4 and a half years now since I have cut it. Don't get me wrong I trim it often. So my question is when did this hair become part of my identity? I love the fact that it is long, but hate that the only thing I can do with it is put it in a ponytail. This past month I have really been toying with the idea of cutting it to my shoulders. Right now it is past my shoulder blades, in the middle of my back. The funny thing about this is that when I was in school and ladies would come in with long hair, or they would be freaking out. Like I am now. I used to think it was so funny. What's the big deal. It's just hair. But is it just hair? What a silly thing to write about I know, but if you could understand the emotional turmoil I am going through. All because of this stupid hair.

A little about me

Hi to all, or just to myself. My name is Jamee J Hardy. Recently known as Jamee J Bowthorpe. I am 25 years old. I am married to my soul-mate(the male version) I have a love/hate relationship with him! That's okay. He can be my greatest joy, or my most frustrating moment. That is also okay. He loves me, knows me, and knows how to love me. Which is really important for me. I can only hope that he feels the same amount of love from me. Chad, who is my husband and I have almost been married for four years. We have a darling baby boy who is 15 months old. Not so much of a baby anymore, but he's MY baby! It's funny for me to think that I wanted a girl. I was happy, don't get me wrong. I just thought he was a girl, until we found out well...he was a boy. How much has a little boy changed my life? More than I can possibly say. Stetson Bow, the sons name, is amazing! And I must say that it is also amazing how well I know him! He has taught me a lot, in just the short time that I have had him. Our little family is LDS. And very proud of that! I also feel very blessed to know that I am a child of God. We are working on becoming a forever family. My family: I have a mom, and Dad and step-mom, 1 sister, and 2 brothers. I am close with them and love to have them around! As for myself, I love my family. I love music, and movies. I especially love Movie Musicals! I love my house. I hate laundry. I like to vacuum, I hate to sweep. I love to cook, but hate to do dishes. I love to sing, but not in front of others. I love scented candles. I enjoy talking on the phone. I enjoy those moments when the house is clean, everything is organized, and I can enjoy my family without chaos going on around us. But my most favorite thing would be, going in my sons room at night to check on him, to make sure he is okay, and there he is sleeping so peacefully that all I can do is thank my Heavenly Father for my blessings of being a wife and mother.